got ley'd?

should have gotten ley'd. dammit.

so i'm sitting there, almost to the point of boredom, coz jiji and golda are sort of downers at any party (=P no offense). marychelle walks in,

"SI MIC*MA* NANDITO!!!"

so i'm sitting there, but now i'm primping my hair, arranging my blouse, and having a hard time breathing. i watch the door for him to walk in. golda and jiji also anticipate his arrival, coz i told them he's my soulmate.

wait. watch. look at some other people. long for the dance floor to open.
wait.
wait.
wait for it...

THERE HE IS!!! and his polo shirt is in the same shade as my top. this is madnes!!!!! he couldn't have looked better. and he's suddenly here!!! at the same place as me!!! madness!!!!!!!!

BUT WAIT.

a girl in black. WAIT! his hand is on her back. WAIT!!! *heart bleeds out*

puters iners. bloody hell. THE ONE TIME I GET, AND HE'S ALREADY TAKEN.

nagkakatotoo yung blog ko!!! AYOKO NA TALAGA MAGKACRUSH!!! promise. ayoko na siya maging crush. ayoko na talaga. ayaw. ayaw na talaga.

this is sparta.

sayaw na lang. dance away all your troubles. there is absolutely no fear on the dancefloor. especially with guy in cap doing all those moves. mm-m. music makes me lose control. he was stinkin' hot.

see? hindi ko na talaga crush si mic*ma*.

cheer up pare

WHAT IS YOUR PROFESSION?!

may nalalaman ka pang mga hirit. KAILAN PA? hindi mo man lang nakuhang sabihin sa kanya. tangina, plastic ka na, sinungaling ka pa. PARA KASING PLANADO EH. tapos hindi mo man lang naisip na halos BIRTHDAY GIFT mo sa kanya yung hiwalayan niyo. tangina, ang sweet sweet mo!!! elibs. enjoy your vacation. masaya siguro sa labas ng bansa.

anyway.

ang saya nung saturday!!!=) graaabe, namiss ko kayo ji at gold!!!! love you guys.
thank you din kay dal. at kay jon pe. at kay les. ang galing2 niyo...=) sana maging artista ko kayo ulit sa susunod.

cuyeg: drama-esque, maalaala mo kaya-esque
lau: the transformation
jill: sleep disturbance
kat: crush ANG bayan

naaks, parang napakalalim nung akin!!! linchak.

sa sabado!

sana ma-approve na yung concept ko. para makapagcram na ko ng preprod, at makapagshoot na sa sabado. bloody hell.

130 am. ngayon lang sumuko si papa sa lahat ng pagkakataong hindi ako natulog. ngayon lang siya tinamaan ng antok at natulog na sa taas! naaaaks. ayoko abutin ng 3.

but my brain is FRIED.

wala na, wala na kong ibubuga... namaaaaaan. kaya blog muna. release muna. nakakahilo na yung play, pause, type, rewind, play, pause, type, rewind, play, type, ayyy sooobra, pause, rewind, rewind, play...

smallville's wall of weird

well that was the weirdest one night stand.

not really a one night stand. more like... whatever. galing ng party ni dast! hayup sa costumes. sana lang siya din nagcostume. joke. hehehehe. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DUDE.

ang weird ng ibang tao. one minute you're like bestfriends, the next, you barely know each other. I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL. napagdaanan ko din yan nung panahong akala ko hindi siya magbabago dahil lang nalaman niya yung mga nararamdaman ko. don't worry, I'M HERE FOR YOU. and you're one of the strongest people i've ever known. you can get through this.

ang weird. i have never enjoyed that genre of film with my MOM. finally!!! 300. =) for glory!!! astig si mama, kasi nagalingan din siya dun sa movie. astig, atchaka mejo weird. =P

ang weird ng BLACK AND WHITE PRODUCTIONS ngayon. akalain mong tapos na kami mag-edit?!?!?! ako hindi ko akalain.

WHAT IS YOUR PROFESSION?!?!?!
superhero.

really bad day

pinuntahan ko yung dati kong blog. kailangan ko kasi magkaron ng perspective tungkol sa sarili ko. SINO BA TALAGA KO? kailangan sa autobiography project sa vidprod. which is really cool. but so totally depressing.

naging suicidal ba ko dati?

napakalungkot kasi nung mga post ko sa luma kong blog. manic-depressive siguro ko dati. nagpakamatay na ba ko dati???tell me, tell me!!!

puro nalang ka-depress-an at ka-emo-han at kaartehan, plus blood and gore in the form of my heart bleeding out of the pc. bloody hell. WAS THAT ME???

sabi ni merishel:

There are bad days to make the good ones better days pare...

bloody hell. that was bloody amazing. beautiful. inspiring. didn't really sink in until that moment that you could be so deep pare. =) thanks for that. thanks for listening to my manic-depressive day.

one day. i'll make it.

once again, batman saves the day.

matchkat

the thing with a match cut is you have to cut on the action.

right when your actor is in the middle of lifting his hand, you cut it. then match it with a shot at a different angle and shot size, right on the other half when your actor is about to finish lifting his hand.

like when you're trying so hard and then finally getting a lot of things right... there's a cut. and you have to do the success-hardwork-work-my-butt-off thing again, but seemingly at a fresh start.

mahirap mag match cut. lalu na 'pag parang kababalik mo lang mula sa kawalan.

...returns.
matchkat.blogspot.com

enrolling

boring... but in a while there'll be the adrenaline rush that comes with online enrollment. ang exciting. excited na din ako magcrash yung server. it won't be enrollment without the regular hold up! sana maganda sked na makuha namin. sana classmates pa din kami nila lau, jill, cuyeg, jason, fatzi, edong, etc.

sana classmate ko siya. hehehehe. pinakita ko kagabi kay mama yung perfect picture ni cuyeg. sabi ba naman, "akala ko ba hindi mo na crush yan?" aba aba. sounds like merishel. sounds like cuyeg. sounds like lau. hehehe. oo na!!! hindi ko na crush!!!

*whistles*

*coughs*

ayan na naman

ayan na naman yung sakit ko.

ayokong ayokong ayokong ayoko kasi ng

gaya-gaya.

yun talaga eh. lalu na pag ako yung ginagaya! tapos aangkinin na siya nagpauso nun. yun talaga siguro makakapagpatransform sa'kin sa isang machong kulay berde na halimaw. pero ayaw ko rin naman yung ginagaya mga friends ko.

lalu na pag close na close na close friend ko. tipong magkadugtong na yung atay namin.

nakakainis. wala ka ba talagang creativity?

*cough***o_g_o_m***cough*

ME HULK! ME CRUSH BUILDING! ME WANT MCSTEAMY! Oooh, McSteamy.

lull...boring pala.

boring din pala pag hindi harassed sa mga deadline. pero ang sarap matulog. McSleepy.

sarap ng date namin nila jill at lau kanina. sarap ng sharing time. sarap ng bagong friends, tapos comfortable na silang magshare at makinig. sarap ng razon's. McSigh.

galing mo talaga pare, minsan talaga makakatikim ng mukha yang kamao mo. hintay ka lang ng konti. siguro bukas pwede nang humarang yung mukha niya sa sapak mo. McBugbog. McGago kasi. Parang McTanga.

sana talaga makanood kami ni mama ng 300 sa weekend. McPray for Mc300.

ang daya naman! hindi ako maka-comment sa multiply ni cuyeg at merishel!!! daya. masasabi ko lang sa picture na kinuha ni cuyeg...ang best picture ever...McCrush. best framing, chong. 4.0 in my book. nakatingin pa sa camera eh! galing. 4.0 talaga. McGaling.

"...where everything's pink and squishy." - Dr. Mark Sloan

McYummy
McSteamy
McDelicious
McGorgeous
McSteamy

300 please

somebody give me 300. please.
nakakaadik. gusto ko na talaga mapanood. all the cool kids have watched it!!! yes, that doesn't include you jason lopez.

300. globe prepaid card.
300. share dapat ni cuyeg sa usb ni lau.
300. crushes. ayy, pinilit.

wala nakong maisip na 300. 300 ways to fail vidprod maybe? 300 ways to say, "i won't die before letting you know this." 300 parking slots in one area of MOA. 300 heartbeats a second when you sit next to me. *can't breathe, can't breathe...* 300 shots on a crazy debut celebration and you go home piss drunk. i'm-so-drunk-i'm-vommiting-my-intestines-out really. 300 sighs in the 15 minutes i see you from afar. 300 blinks for me to believe the 2.0 in cam handling. 300 tremors before i get over passing camera handling. 300 tears on a single episode of grey's anatomy, season 3. 300 daydreams about McSteamy.

McYummy.

and i knew that you meant it

HANDS DOWN
By Dashboard Confessional

...

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me
So won't you kill me, so I'd die happy
My heart is yours, to fill or burst
To break or bury, or wear as jewelry
Whichever you prefer

Hands down, this is the best day I can ever remember
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo
The dim of the soft lights, the scent of your hair
That you twirled in your fingers
And the time on the clock when we realized it's so late
And this walk that we shared together
The streets were wet and the gate was locked
So I jumped it and I let you in
And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist
And you kissed me like you meant it
And I knew that you meant it

***i know you mean everything you say. those were the best days. whenever you saw the things i did.

"peram ah?"

wala na talaga, pero hindi ko mabitawan ang bawat hibla ng kaunting pag-uusap. kahit kaunti lang... mahirap na hindi isiping tinignan niya 'ko. pero hindi naman niya ko nakikita so what's the point diba? like THE... ayoko na! hindi 'ko na crush!

hehehehe.

actually, naisip ko na yung naisip ni asia kanina. na gamitin sa autobiography ang nag-iisa kong pastime. MAGKARON NG CRUSH.

yeah. kaya lang hindi naman ako yung gaganap na KAT PASIGAN. ngek. wasted opportunities with my crushes. gagamitin ko bang artista yung totoo kong mga crush?

whatta decision to make.

ME WANT MCSTEAMY.

hehehehehehehe

MRS. LETICIA CANLAS

you taught me to run.
you taught me to fly.
helped me hear the music of my heart.

you taught me to be a good girl.
kasi nung grade 6 ang daming pasaway.
kahit nakukunsumi ka namin lagi noon, nagtiyaga ka talaga.

hindi kami ganito ngayon kung hindi kami dumaan sa'yo.

ginawa mo kaming mga disiplinado at epektibong mga PAULINIANS.
yung mga alaga mo nung grade 6, kahit laging may kaso,
MAHAL NA MAHAL NAMAN KAYO.

sorry kung ginawa kitang "tarantado" noon. nung nag-away tayo dati.
salamat dahil pinatawad mo ako.

and your love is the music of my heart.

strawberry sunday

i always experience that very relaxing calm before the first wave.
and it's always the sunday after we meet the vidprod deadline.

interesting.

nag marathon kami ni mama kahapon ng grey's anatomy. yung bagong season. si mama kasi, crush na crush si mcdreamy. dalaga pa daw siya, papa na niya yun. well then, i guess i'll just have an order of mcsteamy to go.

shempre, after nung lull before the first wave, yung first wave na mismo.
busy week ahead na naman. buuuut, must not be fazed.
kasi madali lang naman course ko eh.
*parang awkward moment ni jason*

THE CHASE coming up.

this is for you, mrs. canlas. you touched every paulinian's life in unimaginable ways. my part of THE CHASE will be for you.

McSteamy
McDelicious
McGorgeous
McSteamy
A happy meal in one fabulous man.

...D...

The City of Metropolis is in ruins. The destruction that followed Doomsday's rampage is clearly evident in the torn-down buildings, shrapnel and debilitated roads. I devoted my life to this city and it puts hopelessness in me to see it crumble. But it puts more grief in my heart to see the people's hopeless agony.

I know the end is near.

Even if I could not stand all the pain and injury during battle, the single thought of Lois will always keep my heart fighting. She pulls me to fight one more fight and make the next day possible for Metropolis.

This is the only time that I can no longer will my body or soul to fight. This is the only time I would choose the abyss over the struggle for life of the people, of Lois and my own.

Two things made the Man of Steel give up fighting for tomorrow: Doomsday and death.

The last thing that crossed my mind amidst the sound of the people's anguish, the media's frenzy and the city's devastation was the thought of fighting for Lois even in the afterlife.

[prelude to Superman, an earlier piece]

TRAPPED

i must really be SUPERMAN.
*pat on the back*

ayy, feeling. hehehe. buti na lang nameet namin ni cuyeg ang terrible deadlines. apir!
cam handling, done. exer6, done.
problema na lang kung papasa yung grade eh.

pero wag na muna yun problemahin. kung wala nang solusyon, wag na muna problemahin.
parang magiging boring na ulit buhay ko dahil walang hinahabol na deadline...
BUT WAIT! Trapped, to be passed on Thursday. 6 hours of editing left.

THANK YOU ulit kay Marychelle, ang pinakamagaling na zombie slayer.
take that milla jovovich!

puntahan niyo din yung multiply niya, merishel.multiply.com... nandun yung prod pics
ng black and white productions... naaaaaks!!!!! sosyal.

sa costume party ni dastine... can i go as WENDY? can i go as PRINCESS JASMINE?
can i go as MALIBU BARBIE? can i go as a SLUT? can i go as a DRAGONFLY?
endless possibilities. naaaaks.

"SPARTANS! Tonight, we dine in hell!!!"

Doomsday

so this is what it feels like to be Superman, ass-kicked by Doomsday.

take 3 na, hindi pa din pumasa. and to think i gave it my all.

tsk.

if i'm still Superman,
i'll make it through monday, 5pm.

still licking my wounds.

If all this will make me worth being with Lois Lane and staying in Metropolis,
then so be it.

On to battle.

my eyes

so. it's been a while. ano nga ba purpose ng blog? outlet.

pwedeng paglabasan ng feelings.o kaya ng mga feeling mo bagong cool na salita like...
yung kinuwento ni chel dati. hehe.

kung polar opposite ako, papasa ako sa stat.
kung parang ako yung type, hindi ako papasa.

big-eyed, dark skinned. yeh.

un chien andalou thingy.
maganda sana din gawin yunsa vidprod, kaya lang hindi pa kaya ni Superman.

hindi pa kaya.

bakit kasi polar opposite eh. it bothers me.
i try to stop, but it's an addiction. i really, really want to stop. for my own good.

promise. it ends... tonight.

eto totoo na. kahit nag peace out siya kanina.